ɛןן[α]pıs. ♥

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Title : Nothing much

Monday Nothing much to update except that i was badly abuse by baby? hahah

Tuesday was ok. Send baby home. At nite meet honey, fasha and fahmi. Then terserempak nan iyla and nyza. Nyza join us to lepak.

Then yesterday kinda sad. I just ope baby change her decision. Its so sad to see some who is so smart making that decision. Still remembering her dreams when we first shared our stories. Of cause i would miss those moments. But no matter what, im still behind you, supporting you in whatever decision you make. Here are some pictures.

My one and only babysyg =)

Sumpah nmpk cm matrep =((

Fahmi, honey, apis(guitarist) and nyza

Apis and nyza

APis, spiderman nye cikgu *winks

Blogged with love, ell[a]pis @ 9:21 AM

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Title : 010110

It felt really great and relieve that we are ok now. If u ask me how, i just got no answer to it. Its suddenly? Thanks Ella for giving me this chance to prove to you and shower you with my love. Its been a rocky one month but without doubt, with a lot of passion too. I hope we would go on n till eternity.

Muhammad Hafiz menyintai Nurul Shakilla.

Happy one month annivesary.

Blogged with love, ell[a]pis @ 8:49 AM

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Title : Feelings

APIS SADDED. Cover face......

Love. Sympathy. Hurt. Sadness. Pain. Heartache. I love her that much that can cause tears to roll down my cheeks. I doesnt have a real smile to put up since yesterday night, or this morning? The words are so hurtful. It started out with my small little silly mistake, letting emotions take over me. It all started there. Long story make short, its kinda so hurtful, sadded, saket hati giler rbk nye when she say, "frankly, im starting to give up automatically".

I just wish you were there to witness how many tears flow down my cheeks at that point of time. How dissapointed am i to myself. How scared i am of loosing you. How lousy im feeling. apis really cannot take anymore heartbreak. You know how much i love you. you know how hard i fight for you. n you know i wont let you go that easily. but knowing you are already giving up, its like something sharp n poisonous pierce 100 times in my heart.

Thinking back of all our sweet little memories. I realise, small little sweet things. A little giggle you make, your smiles, your laughter are all replaying back. Times from the first time i knew you. Times when gave me your first kiss. Times when the first time you make me slip. Times when we had it for the first time. Times when i saw your childishness. Times we laugh, times we are angry. Times we share our dreams. Times we plan alot of things. I still want to share that with you bbysyg.

I can imagine its coming to an end. I can only imagine. In my heart, i know its not going to be that fast. I know we still have happy times to be together. We still have that things to go. Sky dining, sentosa luge and many more.

Lastly, i would like to thank you for a lot of things you had done for me. I appreciate you alot and what you did. Even times when i was having a high2 fever and you took care of me. I love you very much. I dont want you to go away. Please....im begging you....

Im sorie for hurting you, im sorie for that ignorant behaviour and my selfishness. Im sorie for my inperfection. Im sorie for my flaws. Im sorie for treating you the way you dont like. Im sorie for doing things you dont like. Im sorie for everything.

With love,

bbylove, apisenget, babi.

Blogged with love, ell[a]pis @ 2:24 PM

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Title : I don't wish to talk.

I don't wish to talk. Kinda hate everything for now. Yea, I admit i'm quite emotional at certain times. I guess heartbreaks are normal in life. It's like a norm. I didn't go to work just now. I was in no mood at all. I was all the way at home after going to Shahidah's house. To understand someone seems easy but it's a big no sometimes. To feel what you've felt, to think what you've thought not everyone can have the same as yours. If someone can't even understand about themselves, how do that someone understand the other party? Words are words. We can always make a choice whether not to go/go by those words. Sometimes we had to make our own decisions in life. Not others. We know what's the best for us. To be happy or to be hurt by the choices we made are common in life. Humans. So imperfect. I'm sorry for getting angry at you. No intention. I realised we're not like before. Memories are just meant to be kept and remembered. Thinking back, I miss those moments I first knew you. Pointless now. Those are just memories. School sucks just now. My day sucks to the core. I wished I'm not crying typing all of these but I am. I don't wish to talk more.

Goodbye. It's nearly 5am now. It's late.

P/S : Things are gonna be fine, perhaps. Don't fade away please. Not you.

Blogged with love, ell[a]pis @ 4:32 AM

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Title : When i first fall for her

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you.

- This was before i know her

When one preson no differnt from any other person wanders into your life. You give them a piece of you.They didn't ask for it.They did something one day like kiss you or smile at you and then your life isn't yours anymore.Love takes hostage.It gets inside you...It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness.So simple a phrase like maybe we should be friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart . It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul hurt a real gets -inside-you and-rips-you- apart pain.

-When i realised i fall for her.

I got this while i was surfing the net.

Blogged with love, ell[a]pis @ 1:52 PM

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Title : Dead Floral.

Hello Bloggy.

Nothing much to update. We had a tiff. I'm at fault. I'm the one who should say sorry i guess. I'm wearing floral dress today. That's what u always wanted right. I looked so dead with the dress because of my mood. I love this song ((: When it comes to love, there are many things that are hard to be answered. I love to be loved by you.

I can't believe I'm standing here
Been waiting for so many years and
Today I found the Queen to reign my heart
You changed my live so patiently
And turned it into something good and real
I feel just like I felt in all my dreams
There are questions hard to answer
Can't you see…

Baby, tell me how can I tell you
That I love you more than life
Show me how can I show you
That I'm blinded by your light
When you touch me I can touch you
To find out the dream is true
I love to be loved by you

You're looking kind of scared right now
You're waiting for the wedding vows
But I don't know if my tongue's able to talk
Your beauty is just blinding me
Like sunbeams on a summer stream and
I gotta close my eyes to protect me
Can you take my hand and lead me
From here please yeah...yeah...

Baby, tell me how can I tell you
That I love you more than life
Show me how can I show you
That I'm blinded by your light
When you touch me I can touch you
To find out the dream is true
I love to be loved, I need to be loved
I love to be loved by you

I know they gonna say our love's not strong enough to last forever
And I know they gonna say that we'll give up because of heavy weather
But how can they understand that our love is just heaven sent
We keep on going on and on cause this is where we both belong…

Baby, tell me how can I tell you
That I love you more than life
Show me how can I show you
That I'm blinded by your light
When you touch me I can touch you
To find out the dream is true
I love to be loved, I need yes I need to be loved
I love to be loved by you

Yes I love to be loved by you

I love you still. No matter what.

-EllaKuching-

Blogged with love, ell[a]pis @ 11:06 AM

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Title : MISTAKES IN LIFE....

Sometimes you regretted what you have done? and why do you do you felt so? Cz you hurt yourself? n you hurt some people feeling that you dont wanna hurt. ISIT? Thats what im feeling now.

I felt useless. I make that mistake. Im regretting it. Ive hurt her and ive hurt myself. I do sux at R/S and yeap, this is one good example. But i just hope, this will get us stronger. My heart just felt pain. Its not even one month of our R/S and i felt da mcm lame kite bersame. But yeah, only one month. Its only time where i can know you more, you know me more. Im sorie for what i did. That small things really do hurt u alot i guess. n sum

pah bby, i didnt meant that. Seriously, i dont know what to say. It cannot be undone. Ill just have to ment that heart of yours. I hope i can. Dont forget to wear the floral dress tomorrow. =). Let me make it up to you ok?

Muhmmad Hafiz menyintai Nurul Shakilla dengan sepenuh hati nya.

She mine and im hers.

Loves,

APIS

Blogged with love, ell[a]pis @ 11:05 PM

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Title : Madness

Today kinda have fun! Alot of fun!

Firstup, meet baby at her block and went to cwp. Plan rosak so we went makan at banquet. Then plan punye plan, we end up at ECP. Lepak2 there, took some pictures and went bck to woodlands. Then lepak2 ler, meet tasya, send bby home.

Something happened tadi mlm time lepak nan tasyaa. BIG HAHA!

Let the pictures do the talking aites?

Blogged with love, ell[a]pis @ 10:55 PM

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Title : Random.

Sorry for not msging you. Sorry for not meeting you. Sorry for making you wait. Sorry for treating you differently. Sorry for showing you my attitude yesterday. Sorry for making you sad. I don't know what's wrong with me lately. I've read your post. I'm glad I've made an impact in your life. I thanked you for appreciating me for who I am. Accepting every flaws that I have. Everyone is imperfect. I don't care what people are gonna talk about us for as long as I know that I love you for who you are and nothing is gonna change that fact. Every single moment with you are memorable, precious. Eventhough we could be having a tiff here and there, I know that it will just make our bonds within one another much more stronger. I know I had been raising my voice lately, had been playing pranks, had been "abusing" you, had been making you sad, maybe mad, showing attitude/s but still I do love you. Everyday I keep hoping that I could have you by my side. Every seconds, mintues, hours, days, months, years. But I know that it's impossible. I'll always pray that we will last forever and will go through every single hardships/ obstacles, happiness together, hand in hand. In life we keep learning and learning and I'm sure there are alot of things to learn to make this relationship a better and meaningful one. Let's try our best okay? To make ell[a]pis be together, till eternity. (: Ilyb.

Kinda miss blogging. On Saturday I did work and baby fetched me after work. Went to have a drink and accompanied him to eat. Then took bus to wdlands interchange and walked home. Thanks for fetching me and paid for my drink (:

So yesterday went to work but at clementi. Good experiences over there. Sempat cuci mater. *Winks*. Jkjk. I broke one small bowl(whateverthenameis). Paisey but it's normal anyway. Then at 3 went back to Omni Theatre and had a meeting over there. So merepek actually. Then went home and waited for lil brother. Then went out with family to yishun. After that went home. Thanks to my family for making me happy a lil here and there.

Was hit by something sharp. Haha.

I love the blood flowing out.

Till here.

Sayonara.

-ɛllακʋcнιиɢ-

♥ Baby, Je t'aime

Blogged with love, ell[a]pis @ 12:01 PM

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Title : No title =)

Today was a funfilled day. Meet 3 clans of people thanks to fahmi-yo. Since i got no plans, i just hang out and follow the flow, and i really did. Meet ayumi n qikaa. Then iyla and jenny and this guy. Then meet honey and ocha. Then all lepak together pt lib. Then after that lepak bawah blok wit fahmi n huney and ocha. Juz sing and play guitar before going home.

To my friend there, Cheer up yaw!

Its really soon gonna be our one month. Even if we are just a new couple, every seconds that i went through wit you is really precious. We had some tough time together, problem facing here and there and yet, we went through it without a scratch. Im glad we made it through. I really love you alot and value you and appreciate you. I had that feeling of losing you when you once play a prank on me, and yeap, i hate that. never did i really felt so 'attached' to someone till this relationship. You make me more matured when we started hanging out. You teached me how not to sux in r/s. You allow me to be who i am. You love me for who i am. And you know i do to.

Apisenget

Blogged with love, ell[a]pis @ 10:46 PM